new journal...i got sick of this one...it has too many memories!

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Add me plz. <333

anyone ever fucking comment? [comment]

oh wait..that's right...TOO FUCKING LAZY TO! >_<

Bet you don't even read what i say huh? 'CAUSE ITS TOO LONG >_<

I love Andrew <3333333

Okay, so today was a good day i suppose.LOL. not like any day is good nor fun, but eh, that's life. Anyhow, today [Wed] Amdrew called me!! :] He officially got a cell-phone now! So i'm ish happy :] We talked for a pretty long time, at least almost an hour! And OMG, it's great that we get to finally talk alot now. I missed talking to him, & also he's going to be sending some pictures of him [other than his sailor pics i got] He wants me to have pics of him that aren't him in uniform lol. Gosh, I haven't seen how much his hair has grown,so i dunno yet lol. Man, only got a few more months to go until I see Andrew, i'm still writing his letter. I seriously need to finish it. And i also seriously need to go to sleep because it's 2:05AM >_< Anyhow, Sammy is growing up man :[ And it just seems like she was just born & i was holding her in my arms & meeting her for the first time. Gosh.

So she's officially 2 1/2mths old. 3mths on the 24th & she's teething right now. Got 2 teeth coming in, gosh, sooner than i know, she'll be a year old. lol. Andrew misses her terribly. He can't wait till he can see her. ^___^! She'll be at least 5mths old. Man, he hasn't seen her since she was a 1wk old. But she knows who he is because she remembers. :] Anyhow, I'm just hella talkative right now, and i hardly ever update this thing lol. But, wow! I guess thing's are just good, and i'm happy :] I can't wait till Cheryl gets better, so we can all chill & drink & talk, i love doing that. I love her <333 She's been here for me ever since Andrew left & i thank her for that :] Anyhow, i think i'm going to end this now lol. Well later guys :]

The days are getting closer..and i'm waiting for your call. OMG! I can't get you out of my head & I love you so much <333 I wish you could see Sammy, she's getting soo big, and she loves you :] Gawd, i'm happy right now, or at least whenever i think of you. It's still hard, i miss you & i'm trying to live through each day. I love you so much, i'd willing to suffer through anything. :]

~your bride to be.

And if Drew does read this, don't try & bullshit your girlfriend in saying that because we cut the test off that it's because i was wrong & you were right. We cut it off because it doesn't matter who her father is, we all know Andrew makes a better one than you ever could. And it's not blood that makes a parent, it's someone who's there, loves, cares, & supports them. Ghee, and you don't do any of those things, Andrew's been there from the beginning..and he's always going to be here. So, you quit talking shit & bullshitting your fucking girlfriend...1). it's stupid, & 2). get a life. Fuck, you're soo pathetic! GROW UP ASSHOLE! fucking christ, ur fucking 20!!!!

I know people my age who are alot fucking mature than you. I'm sick of your bullshit. I've bottled this crap in long enough & i can't handle it anymore! So i'm taking it the fuck out. And i hope to god you fucking read this b/c you need to. GRRR! I can't talk anymore, it fucking pisses me off the way you are.

Bye kiddos! Had to let it out.

Ya'll should check out LiveWire! It's awesome! :]

I"m soo happy that i could cry. He treats me so good & I love him soo much.

I'm soo glad i met you Andrew <333

I love him soo much, Andrew & Sam are the greatest things in my life. I'm soo happy that i have them both. We're such a happy family.